Father
Don’t Let Me Crumble
Father,
I stand in the middle of the floor with my hands clutching my bosom. I cover my mouth in an attempt to
suppress this guttural scream that is trying to get out. The pain in my heart is more than I can bear on
my own and my very soul lay bare. I am challenged from all sides and fear that my human shell will crumble. Please dear God, don’t let me crumble.
I humbly ask that you hold these shattered pieces together with the glue of ages named Jesus. Wrap your arms around me Father, because I need you more
than I ever have. Please Father, don’t let me crumble. In this great hour of need,
I need you to be my strength! God of my mother and father, my God, “Don’t Let Me Crumble! As I stretch my hands to you, please reach down and hold me that I not crumble. My insides are fragile
and I cannot do this on my own. You promised that if I called you, you would answer me and you said, that
if I cry you will say “here I am.” It’s me Lord, calling on you, reaching out to you
and with tears streaming down my face. I give you my burdens. On my own I cannot do
this, but with you within me I can stand. Look around you child, can’t you see that I am with you and that I will never leave you alone? I
am in your tears, your fears and rapid heart beat. Look around you and see that you are not alone.
I placed people in the gap for you, that they be my hands and arms to hold you when you cry. I knew
you before you were in your mother’s womb and I knew that this day would come. Without your knowing,
I prepared this place for you. I positioned you and prepared the hearts of those around you that you have
a soft place to lay. I am with and within you always child. You are never alone.
I’m not just in the wind, waves and walls of a church, but I dwell in the hearts of mankind. Yes you will stumble,
but I promise you that you will not crumble. Just stay with me. Stay with me. Cr. Ms. Alice
B. Nixon-Barr, June 7, *2010. This work is not to be duplicated in any form, placed in a retrieval system or used in
any medium, without the written permission of the above named author. Cr.